Catchup Time

21st of August 2016

Its been three months since my last post, nothing has happened but everything has happened (if that makes sense)..

CATCH UP TIME !
Family has been good, gramps has calmed down and has even allowed grams into his room (its a big step) my cousins from Sydney came down to visit a couple of weeks ago and has dramatically changed his mood so things at home has been quite civil. Family business has picked up and I haven’t been there for a while since I’ve pretty much work five days a week at Village,Ā mentioning that.. I got promoted! YAY! šŸ™‚
I’ve also met someone which I didn’t want at the start since the complications with homeboy but it just happened and I’m quite happy (most of the time when his not annoying) he supports what I do and he thinks I’m annoy AF MEHHHH.

@msfiftytwocakes_ has been going well – if you’ve missed this, I’ve started a mission to complete 52 different styles of cakes over a year.. I’ve made 19 out of 52 and its week 33 hehe.. these areĀ some of my creations! Ā FOLLOW MY (SLOOOOWWW) PROGRESS! @msfiftytwocakes_ or msvle_ Ā šŸ™‚

Seriously, how pretty are they! ā¤

Over the three months of winter, I’ve put on 5kgs *palmface – I blame the winter, new relationship and the job (when everyday there is free food hehe) and I started to get indigestion again (I had a really bad case a year ago where I was taking old people pills which my grams takes as well) and knowing this won’t just go away from eating right and taking pills for a couple of monthsĀ I took a change in diet. I’VE BECOME A VEGETARIAN! – for me its a healthy choice and I’ve wanted to be a veggo a while back but I loved meat so much I couldn’t.
Talking about meat, I was looking at whatĀ nutritional needs I needed since meat and fish would be taken out of my intake and some tips that I should consider, link hereĀ for some tips.
Listening some Youtube gal talk about watching ‘Earthlings’ to have a deeper insight into the treatment of animals and OMG its so real and so sad, if everyone who watched this would be veggo/vegans ASAP! If you’reĀ intrigue.. links hereĀ its a hour and a half documentary.Ā CAUTION: ITS VERY GRAPHICAL AND EVERY EMOTIONAL (FORĀ ME)

Lastly, I decided I want to go back to study and its not what you all have in mind..NOT IN PASTRY GUYS.. the reasoning? I don’t want finish LCB in 9 months and to work in a kitchen for long period of time to do the same thing over and over again and not get paid good money. As much as I love baking, I have 52 cakes to help me up skillĀ but to work in a kitchen I don’t think I can do that so I decided to……. *drum roll please! EVENTS MANAGEMENT! It’s a course forĀ a year at William Angliss which I can work and study at the same time next year, Village has premiers and functions which would help with experiences and I would be still making cakes on the side for people who need it (its always someone’s birthday somewhere). Its kinda ideal, but lets just see how it pans out.

That’s my catch up, something but nothing. Promise a recipe next time! *kisses

Happy Blogging!Ā (*Ė˜ļø¶Ė˜*)

Believe and Succeed !

Wednesday 27th of April 2016

Its been a while since myĀ last post.
I needed some time to find myself and where I needed to be, I was really lost and emotional confused with who am I and what I should be doing.
During the three months, we got my grandpa diagnosed with early onset Alzheimer’s, before all that he was very difficult to deal with and it was quite scary coming back with a big shock. Day by day, I see him deteriorate in how he thinks, walks and do things. Its so sad.Ā Our family business isn’t going so well with the transition into Vietnam, helping them out is really good but I feel really useless with my own life. On saying that I did get some interviews and then an offering at Village Cinemas Gold Class to work with them causally (better than nothing.) Being there for six weeks now, the people are really nice, managers are super chilled and it’s a good place to work and build communication skills but I need a full time job, I feel crap not making the money I need.
Homeboy and I decided to end what we had. The reason? It’s complicated but we are still friends and are they’re to support each other.

Now, I feel good. There was a lot of emotional strain with family, personal goals, homeboy and I and now it’s all cleared up, I get to focus on myself, be opened to new things, hang out and meet new people, be around positive people (being negative for so long I needed the good vibes) so I pushed bad friendship away (for now). I needed time to make me better to thenĀ help them be a better person, for now I need to focus on me (as selfish as it sounds).

I was also scared in making pastry because there is an expectation on making amazing cakes and sell them off etc etc. I doubted myself a lot cos I didn’t think I could do it. Then one day (a few weeks back) I thought I needed to make cakes to help build my confidence. I always admire the photos on Pinterest or Instagram so I decided to build my skills from LCB and modern cakes. Julie and Julia as my inspiration, I thought maybe making a cake a week for a year (now I’m about 15 cakes behind lol) so I made another Instagram account @msfiftytwocakes_ #52cakechallange
This is my first cake for this challenge. Lucky my cousin had her birthday and the family had to try it out

I wanted to do a basic vanilla cake, naked, a mint or peachy drip and decorations on top. A lot I learnt from this, the vanilla cake, the drip (the three times I made it, so i gave up), buttercream (is too sweet and its better for decorating) and my tins are two different sizes haha. But overall, the design came out quite nicely but the taste was too sweet for my taking. NOTES TAKEN, LEARNING PROCESS.


I’ve tried to not be a negative person and always think of the good thing but tbh its been a super emotional and tiresome four months coming back and facing the hard truths. Now, I’m pumped to do this 52 cake challenge and build on my skills and try to earn more money for next year to get me back into school and try achieve more. Whatever has happened, has happened. It’s thinking of what to do now and in the future matters.
Believe and Succeed PEOPLE!

Happy Blogging! (*Ė˜ļø¶Ė˜*)

Paris Brest w. Baileys Mousseline Cream

Friday 12th of February 2016

I’ve been really overwhelmed. I’ve concluded.

Everything in my life has been effected one way or anotherĀ since I’ve been back. This week was family that tipped me over.
My brother and grandpa (we think hasĀ dementia) had this massive argument over something so small that lead to tears from all of us just before Chinese New Year (CNY). It was my first time dealing with this and I didn’t realise how bad it has been. Its been a toll on my mum as she’s trying to sort out this family herself (my dad is overseas) which hasn’t been fair for her or my grams cos she gets all the blame from my gramps.
Not sure if that incident has made a bad impression on CNY for me this year but I just felt like it was another family event – normally CNY was big, foodalucious, lots of red pockets and lots of fun and smiles around.. another disappointment.

On a positive note! I baked the Paris Brest with Bailey’s flavoured Mousseline Cream over the weekend; it was for a really good friend’s child’s 1st birthday (silly me, forgot she couldn’t have any alcohol and didn’t really cater for her needs – point taken next time – learning process!)

So I made a tonne of Choux Paste cos I doubled the recipe (yes another silly move) but I was glad cos I got to practice on my piping and play with the oven temperatures and timing.
We made a Paris Brest with Praline Mousseline Cream at LCB and I remembered Em loved it so I wanted to create something similar. I loved how simple it is.

Paris Brest.
Choux Paste (not doubled)
250g water
100g butter
5 eggs
190g strong flour
100g flaked almonds
pinch of salt and sugar
Prepare trays – spray oil on tray and wipe for a thin layer
IN a pot place water, butter, salt and sugar and bring to boil. Take pot off heat and pour in flour and mix, place it back onto the stove and mix until mixture is shiny and mixture doesn’t stick to the spatula. Transfer in mixer with paddle to cool, once you can place your hand on the bowl and its about body temperature pour one egg at a time until it reaches a nice ribbon effect, fill piping bag (star nozzle #21). Mark tray with a 16cm cake ring (dab it into flour) and pipe aroundĀ and inside of the mark and one on top of the two. Sprinkle with flaked almonds and bake for 15-20 minutes (until golden brown).
Tip. a good way to see if the choux is cooked is when they don’t stick to the tray

Bailey’s Mousseline Cream

375g milk
1/2 vanilla bean
4 egg yolks
25g caster sugar
35g corn flour
25g unsalted butter
100g Bailey’s (maybe more)
150g soften butter

Pastry Cream – Custard
IN a pot place milk and vanilla and bring to boil. IN a separate bowl whisk egg yolks and sugar then whisk in corn flour.
When milk has boiled pourĀ half into the egg mixture whileĀ whisking then pour that into the pot and whisk on medium heat until the mixture starts toĀ thicken, take off heat and whisk until combined, place back on heat to boil for two minutes while whisking. Once boiled place 25g of butter and mix in, pour into a cling wrapped tray and contact wrap, into the fridge to cool.

Place soften butter on the mixer with paddle and mix until soft and white – transfer it into bowl. Place cooled custard into mixer and mix until its soft then add butter and place on medium high speed, change to a whisk tool and whip it on high to become hard peaks. Add Bailey’s, add more if isn’t strong enough but making sure the mousseline doesn’t get to runny. Fill piping bag with a PF16 star nozzle with the remaining mousseline keep the mixer on low speed,

Assembly
CAREFULLY take the choux off the tray and cut in half. Using the bottom layer, pipe to fill up the bottom to have an even surface, pipe teardrops from each side like a braid and one of line on top. GENTLY cover with top choux and sprinkle with icing sugar.

Note. comparing the LCB and this mousseline cream – one is thicker than the other. The LCB is used with praline paste (which is wonderful!) and the one I made was a liquid consistency.

I had so much fun making and practicing on three Paris Brest and all was eaten and given feedbackĀ on.šŸ»
Happy Blogging! (*Ė˜ļø¶Ė˜*)

No Expections

February 2ndĀ 2016

Sorry for the last post guys, it was a tad depressing (doesn’t normally happen) – this one would be a little better, I promise C:

After a sook and the blog post, I realised that I haven’t had the time for myself as I was so caught up in others issues which just stressed me out even more on top of my own issues. Being away from friends and family for a period of time IĀ didn’tĀ have to (I guess) deal with their issues, which was much more simpler because I just had to worry for myself but now I had to be there for them.

I decidedĀ to take myself away from Facebook, I’ve always had Facebook or MySpace or Asian GrooveĀ (yes lol), I spent endless time on Facebook looking at nonsense posts, people’s achievements or random things, I realised I could spend this time on better things like educating myself on planning my own recipes, job searches, spending it with people around me that matter or some me/ homeboy time. At this point in my life, its something I needed to do to focus on the important things.

As complicated as homeboy and I’s relationship is and how insecure I am, its just something I have to get over in time because our relationship foundations hasn’t really began. Reading my previous post I questioned those things because I don’t know where I stand in his life – I certainly love this guy but I’ve put up an invisible wall between us so I won’t get hurt again as sad as it sounds but you’ve got to protect yourself right?
Over the weekend, he showed me something that I haven’t seen in awhile – he caring eyes stared down on me like he didn’t want me to go. I’ve forgotten he isn’t a big gesture or talker type of guy but being with him and seeing what he does shows me that he still cares and still wants me around.. It’s gonna be a long journey and time would unfold certain things so we’ll just have wait and see.

I applied for a couple of jobs during the week and I got one rejection email and a first round interview which I’m quite excited about – not the hospitality industry that I’m looking for but better than nothing – interview’s in two weeks time!
If I could get that job offer I could maybe make cakes on the side and try out new recipes when I do start a business but who knows..

No more exceptions on whats gonna happen. It obviously disappoints you. XD
SO, I’ve decided to be in the present and be blessed in this moment, see if this interview becomes a job and then see what happens – if I’m too stressed out then I can use that wageĀ to finish off my diploma if not continue what I was doing, I’ll put in my best with homeboy and it would slowly unfold and everything else would fall together.. Nothing is set into place but the goals I had this year has increased (more like responsibilities)

My 2016 Goals.

  • To save enough monies to buy a car
  • Pay for tuition for the final term at Le Cordon Bleu
  • Balance life equally – family, friends, homeboy, career and me time
  • Give and give into the relationship with homeboy
  • Whatever else happens is just bonus

Extended Goals.

  • A full time job and work hard
  • Helping with family financial issues
  • Being able to be independent again
  • Focus on me
  • Research on recipes and try them out
  • Be happy if not, say something about it
  • Lose weight to under 60kgs

Over the weekend I’ll be making a Paris Brest for my friend son’s 1st birthday and I also got my first cake order today. OOOOOOOOOOO!

Just gonna look up.. D:

 

Happy Blogging! (*Ė˜ļø¶Ė˜*)

Expectations

January 29th 2016

Its been seven weeks since I’ve been back home and the first couple of weeks have been super busy, helping my family’s business, catching up on friends and family, New Years, Phil’s wedding and now time for me to think and catch up on me.

I expecting things would be different when I came home:
I would be more enthusiastic in finding a job, building a business, having a relationship, family would be great and everything would just fall into place but in reality, life is shit *excuse my french*

Since I’ve been home, I realised that some of my friends are really immature in a sense of how they behavior is very like in high school such asĀ making extended friends to be on your side of a break up or I’m not a good friend because of this this this or making a big deal out of something that isn’t. I have matured a lot over the time in NZ and coming back to friends who have remained the same, I was really frustrated.
I want them to mature, make logical decisions and become a better person that they are now. Unless they pissed me off realllllyy badly.

My family needs me to help out with the family business as we are in a lot of money issues as I’m now needing a job to help support them and me too.

I feel really lost in my life. I don’t know where I should be or what to do anymore, I’m scared of what people would say about my desserts so I haven’t made any as they expect a lot from me.. so I haven’t had the confidence to build my own company.

I don’t know how homeboy feels about me and I think its an answer I don’t want to hear, I’m so scared of losing him but it feels like I’m just his ‘friend’Ā and its breaking my heart. It’s hisĀ birthday tomorrow and I wanted to do something with him but he wanted to sleep instead – does that hint thatĀ something is wrong already, that he doesn’t want to be with me anymore? Is it worth it to be with him? Should I wait? If I didn’t go to NZ would it be different? I question this every time. If I break up with him, it means that I would never see him again cos its gonna be painful as hell to see him and I think he doesn’t want that.

I feel like everything around is breaking up and I can’t hold it all together anymore.

Slowly things would fall into place but at this moment, the fights I’ve had with friends have kept me up at night, not knowing what to do next in my futureĀ and homeboy issues have made me soo unbearable and I just need some time alone for a very long time but it can’t happen now or the next month because of commitments and money issues.

I’m not happy, can I get new friends and a new life? KTHANKSBYE

 

Blog for your life.. BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!Ā *sigh

Phil&Niki’s Wedding

January 11th 2016

Phil is my bestie’s ex-boyfriend and Niki was theĀ same bestie’s ex best friend – as you would gather it ended badly. I wasn’t close to both of them but I knew of the situation back in high school.Ā AĀ couple years back he contacted me to catch up andĀ we got on like fire as we were quite alike in personality and lameness. Phil is someone I can turn to if I’m stuck in a emotional situation and he always knows what to say.

We went to get coffee one night and he has beenĀ talking about popping the question for a while and I jokingly self invited to be at the wedding and that’s when he asked me to be his best man. XD

We went to find her a engagement ring a year ago and we both learnt about the 4 C’s:
Clarity: TheĀ measure of the number and size of the tiny imperfections
Cut:Ā The cut of a diamond determines its brilliance. Put simply, the better a diamond is cut, the more sparkle it will have.
Colour:Ā A diamond’s colour grade actually refers to the lack of colour. In other words, diamonds that are white, containing little or no colour, receive higher quality grades than those with visible colour. D is the whitest you can go.
Carat Weight: TheĀ measure of a diamond’s weight viewed fromĀ top
And then there is also the shape:Ā (round, princess, radiant, etc.) describes a diamond’s form, primarily as viewed from above.

So he got her a 1.1 carat, D colour, ideal cut, VVS2 clarity, in a round shape and in a 6 claw platinum sliver ring. He went over his budget by alot lol but he wanted her to have the best. How did he pop the question? WellĀ he repeated the same eventsĀ as his first date like a circle, like a ring. Get it?
The engagement was four months after, thenĀ they brought a house six months after that and got married a couple days ago. Two years in the making. Wow.

The Wedding Week.
Over the week we had the church rehearsal, getting pampered, getting into a car accident (yes, the maid of honor t-boned a van), writing up 160Ā place cards, helping out with flower arrangements, preppingĀ the reception, making the table center pieces, decorating Phil’sĀ house and making sure everyone knows what they were doing. Amongst all that, I gained 2kg just from hanging out with them to eat but it was so good to bond with everyone with the little time we had.

Note: Although I’m Phil’s best man, they decided I would be on Niki’s bridemaidĀ wearing a dress but would be standing next to him throughout the day

The Wedding Day.Ā 
6am – hair, make up and getting changed (it was a mad rush)
10am – tea ceremony at Niki’s house then to Phil’s house for the tea ceremony
11.30pm – we finally got something to eat and drink then to relax for a bit.
12.30om – some of the bridal party went to the church to decorate while the maid of honor and I stayed to help Niki with putting on her dress
2pm – arrived at the church – it was a beautiful sunny day – walked down the aisle and had the church mass
In the middle of all that, his brother, my partner disappeared because he and his girlfriend had an argument – we found out later she was annoyed that she wasn’t part of the bridal party and she felt used leading up to the day.
3pm – whole family and friends photos
4pm – we went to a park to take photos, there was so much laughs with everyone – his brother was unreachable and wasn’t part of the bridal photos
12485921_10156560261855372_2332779676752282718_o5pm – bridal party left to go set up the reception
6pm – ushering people inside and the couple took photos with everyone
7pm – started the reception
8pm – the couple had their first dance whereĀ Phil’s sister and her boyfriend sangĀ Frank Sinatra’s Fly Me To The MoonĀ and then the bridal party paired up and danced to some Ed Sheeran. Then we organised to have both his and her friends to light up sparkles leading up to theĀ gazebo so he could say his vows to her where she wanted it in the first place but had to change plans. Isn’t he the sweetest? I wants that.. sigh t_t
The rest of the night consist of dancing (alot of it), photo taking, eating, drinking and mingling with friends.

Some photos from the day..

Wishing you both all the happiness in the world, make sure you both argue but love at same time, make heaps of babies for me to play with and grow old together. Wishing you guys the best of the best.

Happy Blogging!~Ā (*Ė˜ļø¶Ė˜*)

New Year New Me

28th of December 2015

This year has been a roller coaster, half the year in Melbourne and the other in New Zealand.
Recap of 2015:

  • Road trips with old friends
  • Catching my first baby pipi. C:
  • Saying goodbye to one of my bestie’s to be with her other half all the way on the other side of the world
  • Getting rid of unwanted friendships
  • Taking care of my body to not over lookĀ small symptoms
  • Helping my best mate with his wedding plans
  • Raising $3654.70 for Royal Children’s Hospital Good Friday Appeal
  • A holiday to New Zealand and deciding that I would study there
  • Attending for the first friend wedding
  • Quitting my childĀ educatorĀ job ofĀ four years
  • Saying goodbye to family, friends and homeboy
  • Seeing how much I mean to them andĀ they mean to me
  • Countless times of clubbing and getting drunk
  • Studying and travelling in New Zealand (again)
  • Catching mini crabs, abalone and fish
  • Being independent and moving into with two flatmates 20 minutes from the city
  • Making international friends
  • Going to school at Le Cordon Bleu
  • RankedĀ top three for both basic and intermediate patisserie terms
  • Finding a short term job at Social Kitchen
  • Coffee trained
  • Dumpling master
  • Creating and learning so much about different desserts
  • Spending a lot of alone time
  • Getting tattoos
  • Toning up and losing weight
  • Reuniting with family and friends
  • Eating so much good food again
  • Finally to settleĀ with the homeboy

Lessons of 2015:

  • To get rid of ‘friends’ who don’t make me grow in anyway – the small circle of friends you have is all you need
  • Moving away from home is hard – independence has a price
  • Each and every relationship is different and don’t compare them
  • Always give and give and give – put in that effort. If they don’t respond then you know where you stand in their life
  • Always be happy in everything you do
  • If you want to change your career make sure you have the passion. A job in hospitality requires a lot of stamina, patience, hard work and aĀ lot of cuts and bruises
  • Long distance relationships sucks
  • Don’t take the things around you for granted – family, friends and material things
  • To move forward, enjoy the present and be blessed about the past it has made you grow and made youĀ who you are today
  • Healthy eating habits
  • Life is about moving up and making yourself happy

My 2016 Goals.

  • To save enough monies to buy a car and tuition for the final term at Le Cordon Bleu
  • Balance my life equally – family, friends, homeboy, career and alone time
  • Give and give and give effort into the relationship with homeboy
  • Whatever else happens is just bonus

Can’t wait.

 

My New Years wasn’t really decided until a day before. Homeboy was suppose to spend New Years with his familyĀ so I wouldn’t of seen him but lucky he didn’t. We also had some close friends with us which was really nice but I lost them most of the night as well as homeboy but we we found each other and spent the first few hours of the 2016 together. I can’t complain ^^

 

I hope that in this year to come, you make mistakes.

Because if you are making mistakes, then you are making new things, trying new things, learning, living, pushing yourself, changing yourself, changing your world. You’re doing things you’ve never done before, and more importantly, you’re Doing Something.

So that’s my wish for you, and all of us, and my wish for myself. Make New Mistakes. Make glorious, amazing mistakes. Make mistakes nobody’s ever made before. Don’t freeze, don’t stop, don’t worry that it isn’t good enough, or it isn’t perfect, whatever it is: art, or love, or work or family or life.

Whatever it is you’re scared of doing, Do it.
– Neil Gaiman

 

Wishing you all a Happy New Year, may all your dreams and goals come true in 2016! Bring on 2016!

Happy Blogging! (*Ė˜ļø¶Ė˜*)